There are some hills which are climbed for the view.
There are others which are climbed for the sake of arriving.
And there are a very fewâthough these are the most importantâwhich are climbed because one cannot remain below them without feeling that something essential has been left unfinished.
This was such a hill.
It was not, by any reasonable standard, a large hill. Indeed, it might easily have been overlooked by anyone occupied with more practical concerns. It rose gently beyond the village, with none of the dramatic ambition of mountains and none of the imposing authority of cliffs.
And yetâ
It possessed a peculiar gravity.
Not the sort that pulls one downward, but the sort that draws one upward, as though the air itself were asking a question that could not be answered below.
Cinnamon Bear paused at the foot of the slope and looked up.
âWell,â he said, adjusting his pack, âthis appears to be the sort of place that does not insist upon being noticed⊠but does not permit itself to be ignored.â
Paddy OâCinnamon peered upward with narrowed eyes.
âI donât trust a hill that looks that reasonable,â he said. âIt suggests it has something unreasonable at the top.â
Jimmy shaded his eyes.
âIt doesnât look like much,â he said.
âNo,â said Judy quietly. âBut it feels like something.â
Cinnamon Bear nodded.
âYes,â he said. âAnd in matters of this kind, feeling is often a form of remembering.â
They began to climb.
The path was neither steep nor difficult, but it had the curious quality of making each step feel slightly more significant than the last. The village behind them grew smallerânot merely in size, but in importanceâuntil it seemed less like a place they had left and more like a thought that had already begun to fade.
About halfway up, Jimmy stopped.
âDo you hear that?â he asked.
They all paused.
âI donât hear anything,â said Paddy.
âExactly,â said Jimmy.
Cinnamon Bear smiled faintly.
âYes,â he said. âSilence is often most noticeable when it should not be there.â
They continued.
As they neared the top, the air seemed to grow clearerânot brighter, but sharper, as though the world had been quietly adjusting its focus.
And then they saw him.
He stood at the crest of the hill, precisely where the path leveled into something that might almost be called a destination. He was tall, though not imposing, and thin in the manner of someone who had long ago decided that substance was less important than significance.
His coat was coveredâquite deliberately coveredâwith question marks.
Not printed, nor embroidered, but arranged in such a way that they seemed to have settled there of their own accord, as though questions themselves had chosen him as their natural habitation.
He bowed slightly as they approached.
âI am the Keeper of Questions,â he said.
His voice was neither loud nor soft, but carried with the peculiar clarity of a thought that has just occurred.
Paddy stepped forward at once.
âDo you have any answers?â he asked.
The Keeper considered this.
âOh no,â he said pleasantly. âAnswers are far too final.â
Jimmy frowned.
âBut if you donât have answers,â he said, âwhat do you keep the questions for?â
The Keeper smiled.
âFor the same reason one keeps doors,â he said. âNot to admire them, but to pass through them.â
Cinnamon Bear inclined his head.
âWe are looking for something that is missing,â he said.
âAh,â said the Keeper, as though this confirmed a suspicion he had not yet expressed. âThen you have come precisely as far as one can come without understanding why.â
Paddy scratched his head.
âThat sounds like a great deal of walking for very little understanding,â he said.
âOn the contrary,â said the Keeper. âIt is the exact amount required.â
Judy stepped forward.
âWe went to the village,â she said. âTheyâve forgotten something. Something important.â
âYes,â said the Keeper.
âWhat was it?â asked Jimmy.
The Keeper regarded them all with a look that was neither amused nor serious, but something in between.
âIf I were to tell you,â he said, âyou would know it⊠but you would not understand it.â
âThat doesnât seem very helpful,â said Paddy.
âNo,â said the Keeper. âIt rarely does.â
There was a pause.
The wind moved gently across the hill, carrying with it that same almost-soundâthe memory of something that had not yet returned.
At last, the Keeper spoke again.
âYou are looking for something that is missing,â he said. âThen you must answer a question.â
Paddy brightened.
âIâm very good at answering questions,â he said. âEspecially if they are about food.â
âThis one is not,â said the Keeper.
Paddyâs expression fell.
âWell,â he said, âI can try.â
The Keeper raised a long, narrow finger.
âWhat,â he asked, âis more powerful than a king, more frightening than a storm⊠and yet is nothing at all?â
There was a silence.
Jimmy spoke first.
âA shadow?â he ventured.
âA shadow,â said the Keeper, âis something that suggests something else.â
Judy frowned.
âFear?â she said.
âFear,â said the Keeper, âis something that belongs to those who feel it.â
Paddy considered this very seriously.
âTaxes?â he said at last.
The Keeper paused.
âClose,â he said. âBut no.â
Paddy looked offended.
âI should think that qualifies as both powerful and frightening,â he said.
Cinnamon Bear had not spoken.
He stood very still, looking not at the Keeper, nor at the hill, but somewhere beyond bothâas though he were considering not the question itself, but the absence around it.
At last, he spoke.
âAn empty tomb,â he said quietly.
There was a pause.
Not the sort that follows uncertainty.
The sort that follows recognition.
The Keeper smiled.
âYou are closer than most,â he said.
Jimmy looked from one to the other.
âBut thatâs not nothing,â he said. âA tomb is something.â
âYes,â said Cinnamon Bear. âBut what we are speaking of⊠is what is not in it.â
Judyâs eyes widened slightly.
âThatâs whatâs missing,â she said.
The Keeper inclined his head.
âNow you begin to see,â he said.
Paddy looked unconvinced.
âI still donât see how nothing can be more powerful than something,â he said.
âThat,â said the Keeper, âis because you are thinking of nothing as an absence.â
âAnd what else could it be?â asked Paddy.
The Keeper gestured gently toward the path beyond him.
âThat,â he said, âis precisely what you must discover.â
They turned.
Beyond the Keeper, the hill did not end.
It continued.
Not upward, but onward.
A path stretched outânot clearly defined, but unmistakably presentâas though it had been waiting, not to be seen, but to be noticed.
Jimmy stepped forward.
âSo this is the way?â he asked.
The Keeper nodded.
âIt is a way,â he said. âWhether it is yours depends on whether you are willing to follow it.â
Judy looked back toward the village.
âThey still donât know,â she said.
âNo,â said Cinnamon Bear. âBut they will.â
âHow?â asked Jimmy.
Cinnamon Bear smiled slightly.
âBy discovering,â he said, âthat what they thought was nothing⊠is the reason for everything.â
Paddy adjusted his hat.
âWell,â he said, âI donât entirely understand it⊠but I feel considerably more interested than I did before.â
âThat,â said the Keeper, âis the proper beginning of understanding.â
There was a moment thenâquiet, but not emptyâin which it seemed that something had shifted.
Not in the world.
But in the way they saw it.
The hill behind them was still a hill.
The village below was still a village.
And yetâ
Neither was quite the same.
Cinnamon Bear turned to the Keeper.
âWill we see you again?â he asked.
The Keeper smiled.
âYou will encounter questions,â he said. âWhether you encounter me depends on whether you recognize them.â
Paddy nodded solemnly.
âI shall do my best to recognize anything that looks like a question,â he said. âThough I admit I have occasionally mistaken them for sandwiches.â
âThat,â said the Keeper, âis a common difficulty.â
They began to walk.
The path ahead was not easier than the one behindâbut it was clearer, in the way that a thing becomes clear once one has understood why it matters.
Behind them, the Keeper of Questions remained at the top of the hill, exactly where he had always been, and perhaps exactly where he would always beâstanding at the place where answers are not yet permitted, but questions are no longer avoidable.
And as they went, the air seemed to change once more.
Not louder.
Not brighter.
But fuller.
As though the silence they had heard before was beginning, very quietly, to remember its voice.
End of Part III


